Save Me

I have to drink this shit to keep my mind occupied
We all gon' die and that's the only thing on mind
I wanna fly away and be alone, I wanna hide
My thoughts controlling me, I feel so goddamn blind

I'm lost, I'm bleeding, happiness, I'm tryna find
My lungs are weezing, I don't really wanna die
My soul is empty and that's why I get so high
In my head I'm lonely and there's nowhere to get out

You see me, it's Costy, that's not even me
I'm praying to God for some help
Shit, I don't know where to start
Started taking meds and my life got so hard

Tried to build it up but it just fell apart
I've been dealing with some shit and my past is so dark
I don't know where I belong, can't even write a song
Sitting alone, with all this fucking pain involved

It brought too much pain in my brain, I can't even f*cking sleep
Don't know where to go, all this pain so f*cking deep
God bless his soul, yeah, I'm talking about Lil Peep
He took an overdose, why I stay away from Lean

My heart's so f*cking broke, wonder who I'm gonna be
Couldn't buy those clothes, had to wear the same jeans
Screaming f*ck the school system, I don't give a shit
I don't wanna get a job, I'd rather go get rich

Aye, fighting demons, would you believe me
If I tell you that I'm not okay, anxiety and pressure
Every day I got this feeling that my faith's faded away
And when I'm famous, and probably painless

I'ma go today, but I'm partying till I'm wasted
Used to drink alone, that addict life, I tasted
Used to call my phone, now I'm feeling so hated
Are you gonna call me when I told you I made it

Help me God, just take me away from it
Can you please help quit, stayin' on it
Praying to God that I'm gonna make it
F*ck people, they just trying to break me

I think somebody needs to wake me up
I just wish I had the time to make it up
I just wish you'd call my phone to save me out
I just wish you'd call my phone to save me out

I have to drink this shit to keep my mind occupied
We all gon' die and that's the only thing on mind
I wanna fly away and be alone, I wanna hide
My thoughts controlling me, I feel so goddamn blind

I'm lost, I'm bleeding, happiness, I'm tryna find
My lungs are weezing, I don't really wanna die
My soul is empty and that's why I get so high
In my head I'm lonely and there's nowhere to get out

I just wanna get away from you, I don't wanna fight
Don't worry bout' my past, I don't want you to remind me
Thought I was in love but my feelings, ain't gon last
It's hard for me to love, can you even try to show me
My life, it's going fast
And my feelings cannot grow on me, don't say or say it's past
But you're still hatin' on me, don't know what to do
Recently I just lost my homie, feeling like I'm changing
And I won't become the old me

I'm just sitting here down
Looking at my life, making music and that's how I spend my time
I was down bad, now I really wanna shine
And I think about the pain, it's like I'm walking through my past
I used to skip school, I was like f*ck my class
I'd rather go home so I can smoke that big gas
Used to hate math and I didn't even pass
I know I fucked up, yeah I know that I'm bad

I have to drink this shit to keep my mind occupied
We all gon' die and that's the only thing on mind
I wanna fly away and be alone, I wanna hide
My thoughts controlling me, I feel so goddamn blind

I'm lost, I'm bleeding, happiness, I'm tryna find
My lungs are weezing, I don't really wanna die
My soul is empty and that's why I get so high
In my head I'm lonely and there's nowhere to get out