I Could ('Til It's Gone)

Look at these people all around me
It's crazy save me
Oh wait
I'm overactively dreaming lately
Like lucid
But who said
That I lost when I did
I'm just warning these kids
If you listen to hate
First you bend then you break
World can't relate
Stumble and fall on your face
But get up
Yea get up and show em all
Even though we stop we don't stall
When I get in the spotlight
When I'm getting my mind right
When I get it to sound like
The sounds so familiar
They come around
Down to the ground
Down from a huntable surplus to one
Shouts to Aesop
Fairytales please save me
From reality gridlock
I keep trying to breathe
Always choked by the hands of the clock
There's all these things that I could be
Looking around ain't surrounding my world
In the sea of dreams I drown
Endlessly
Believing I should still saving that part of me
That cares but I'm scared
Of what I
Of what I could be
Yea, embarrassment
Yea, I went and buried it
Torch lit, I carry it
Until the flame betrays
Like Judas Iscariot
'Til some kind of delirium get in my way
I find at times
I still don't know what to say
Still waiting on the chariot another day
Without absolutely zero
I still fly like helium - away
Like no one can predict
Moreover, like nobody can contain
Okay
Let me try and play
Hold the beat
Call it game delay
In the bae
Call her Mandalay
I say
See me running
To the cities from the burbs
Heard shots started gunning
'Til my words absurd
I learned
With every criticism I earned
I burn past the suckers
Spewing the verbs
Look around it's the same damn case
Bunch of local all-stars
Stuck in my same place
There's all these things that I could be
Looking around ain't surrounding my world
In the sea of dreams I drown
Endlessly
Believing I should still saving that part of me
That cares but I'm scared
Of what I
Of what I could be
I could lead a nation
I could have a plan
I could give it all away
But damn
They wouldn't understand
I could be the wrong man for the desk job
I could be the right hand for the wrong man
Then blame what,
Happenstance?
Nah
I got more control of the circumstance
I could be star
Everyone would see me
Guys would wanna be me
I could have girls on the repeat
Oh, look at the time
Gotta go
Cause I could have a deal on the other line
No?
Nah, didn't think so
Could have turned ink into heat strokes
I could have changed money
I could have changed fame
I could have been pretending
But it would have been the same
I'm on now

I could live my life
In front of all these people
Stay composed as the stage lights burn
And the curtain draws
Wait for the signal
Wait for the signal
You're on
Live in
Live in this moment
'Til it's gone
I could live my life
In front of all these people
Stay composed as the stage lights burn
And the curtain draws
Wait for the signal
Wait for the signal
You're on
Live in
Live in this moment
'Til it's gone