Ticking Boxes

It ain't about the car
Ain't about the green
Sure ain't about no ring
It ain't about the white picket fence or that just depends
On where your truth begins
On where your story ends
Or maybe I'm just rambling off-topic
Been sold so many dreams
But I'm left standing empty-handed
My quest for independence sure has taken the advantage
Won't somebody tell me where's the pill
To ease the ache of all my losses
I don't want to spend the rest of my life ticking boxes
Ain't about the past
Ain't about worrying 'bout tomorrow
Ain't about fear
'Cause heaven knows that time is always borrowed
In the end
So I'd rather not pretend
To have the upper hand
'Cause that facade is hallow
I feel I've lost my mind
Done searching for forever after
If I could relieve the pressure
Hidden under perfect laughter
I've been clinging to this list so long
I finally realized what the cost is
I don't want to spend my whole damn life
Just ticking boxes
Ain't about the

So it ain't about the ring
It's not about worrying about tomorrow
Had to let it go
'Cause if I held on
I'm not sure that I could make it
I messed up I had to face it
Waited on loved and now it's faded
Let's just say it's complicated