Hide and Seek

I lie awake inside my bed
Endless thoughts race through my head
And I'm so tired that I can't sleep
Cuz when I wake I'll be knee-deep
In that game I am forced to play
So the ones I love won't run away

Mom says that I'm a good boy
Feels like I'm just another toy
All the girls use to satisfy
Knowing I will never be their guy
All their words are full of lies
I don't know the reason I still try

Cuz every time that I try
I end up the bad guy
All I feel way too weak
In this messed up game of hide and seek

I have to make myself known
So that I don't end up alone
At least that's what they all tell me
Perfect's what I need to be
Or else I'll never fit in
And these girls will never let me win

Love's never been kind to me
Taken girls are all I ever see
Stuck in endless cycles of first dates
I get no love, just left with hate
Will I ever be the one
Should I even try when I'm so done

Cuz every time that I try
I end up the bad guy
All I ever do is overthink
In an ocean of love, I'd probably sink
Seems I've looked everywhere I can
Like I'm a part of some bigger plan
And all I feel is way too weak
In this messed up game of hide and seek

Grandma tells me that it's not a crime
To wait for the right girl at the right time
Oh, she says there's so much more in store
That I haven't found what I'm looking for
Be patient, it'll be okay
Your day just might not be today
Then why do I feel ready
I'm coming to find you

You don't have to hide from me anymore
Please come out from behind that door
And we'll end this silly hiding game
And our lives will never be the same
Maybe all of my doubts and fears
Have held me back after all these years
Maybe I am just too weak
For this messed up game of hide and seek
Oh, this messed up game of hide and seek