18 (Freestyle)

Yeah, this a freestyle too don't play me
I'ma try and one-take this joint
Let's go, uh, okay, uh, uh

Listen, 18 years old, in my bag, I never fumbled it
Big stepper, rock hard, never been stumbling
Street singer, wockhardt, never had a gun on him
Was 18 when my heart broke, way past recovering
It's got a bandage, cuz in these words I brandish
The truth about how I'm really feeling, like I really wan' vanish
And disappear out of the lives of half the people I grew up with
But my momma taught me that I outta stick with who I stuck with
Big dreams, diamond chains, but an education
No sleep, stressed brain, be the side effecting
Try'na balance a workload, but be social
But I'm often more encouraged to stay shut up out my circle
Motivation to create when you feel down is hellish
How you make a hype album, when you never feeling selfish?
Feel like I've grown a bit out of my old narcissism
But the second that I'm happy, he'll be back out here to get em

Out of my hometown, where I'm raised
Adjusting to new ways, is a pain
And when I can't see you everyday
Maybe I'll fall out of touch with you babe
Maybe I could just stay in my lane
And get back to do what I do best
If you really wan' know me okay
Don't be angry when I need some space

Just kidding, I'ma dive headfirst without looking
At the bottom could be concrete or candy, but I'm putting
Myself in this position anyways so who cares
I'll be the one who's hurt when we both fall down the stairs
They say it's truth or it's dare
The truth is I'm feeling bare
I wouldn't dare to open up to my family bout how I've faired
These successes and fails
I couldn't afford my bail
That's why I gotta be straight, I know I gotta prevail
But with these walls closing in, how could it ever be fair
When you out living in the open, working as a perfect pair
Think I'll stare, but it's too awkward for me to bare
So I'll just shove these feelings way back down, and they'll stay there
They say these best years of your life, was what's coming
But I feel like this last month was so wack, it ain't nothing
What I thought it would be like, just wanna feel something
I been numb to the drama since they put me out free running

And when I turned 18 it was great
Since then I been feeling pain
And when I can't see you everyday
Maybe I'll fall out of touch with you babe
Maybe I can just stay in my lane
And get back to do what I do best
Took my heart at 18
What could they do to save me?



Credits
Writer(s): Grant Davis
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