My Name Isn't Katherine

Your mind is created
By your name

My name isn't Katherine
My name isn't Crystal
My name isn't Nicki
Or Chad or Sebastian
But thank you for asking

Drunk on a mattress
Kissing an actress
Taking the last sip
They call that a hat trick
It turns out the sad kids
Become the Brad Pitts
Ain't that rich?

My name is a question
A reckoning whether
My parents were laughing
Or stressing when they
Had to give me their blessing
And pray that it lasted

I went from the classroom
Acing exams in a regular fashion
To searching for God
In a bathroom (where is He?)
And I wonder now
How the fuck did it happen?

Tracing the lines
But the lines get blurred
Yeah, the pot gets smoked
And the pot gets stirred
Said my concert was dope
But I'm not so sure
I've been feeling
The end of my rope, insecure

Wish I was taller and bigger
But smaller too
I want a mansion
To wander through
I wanna appear
On the CNN crawler
I wanna be leisurely
Tanning Bahama cruise

I'm on the loose
Nothing to lose
Gimme the juice
Sipping a brew
Because the news
Making me blue

Giving me anxiety
Banks lie to us
Tanks firing
Bang, bang a lot
Catch sight of it
Straight outta luck
You're dead

Society's pill-popping now
Dad lied to me
Still talk about
That with my therapist
So, I don't go jumping
Off terraces

My name isn't Katherine
My name isn't Crystal
My name isn't Nicki
Or Chad or Sebastian
But thank you for asking

Drunk on a mattress
Kissing an actress
Taking the last sip
They call that a hat-trick
It turns out the sad kids
Become the Brad Pitts
Ain't that rich?

My name is obnoxious
My name is preposterous
My name is an albatross
Around my neck
Tightening up her grip
And it's making me nauseous

My name is a lineage
I'm a guinea pig
Am I a genius?
Am I an idiot?
Am I just digits
Inside of the matrix?
Existence is boxing me in
Like a cage every day

Yeah, my name is a shadow
It wrapped itself around me
Just like a lasso
Follow me from NYC
Out to Glasgow
Pounded me into the ground
Like a gavel

Said you can't escape
Licking the envelope
Sealing my fate
I'm feeling the pain of a person
Who's spreading the love
But witnesses hate, wait

I rewind and decide
To be kind whenever I can
So, I'm making a beeline for
All of my friends and my enemies
Even the ones who have declined
To be fine with everyone
Being their self

They say that
We're going to Hell
But I turned my check
I can tell
That they've just been
Crying for help
We all can be somebody else

'Cause everyone's feeling afraid
We all have the power to chance
We all came to Earth just the same
Nobody even chose their name

Nobody even chose their name
Nobody even chose their name
Nobody even chose their name
Nobody even chose their-

I thought that my name was unique
But it was naive to believe that
Turns out there's many of me
Walking around on the planet
And one day the tables will turn
I'll look at my newborn baby
And know that her name is a curse
Isn't it crazy?

My name isn't Katherine
My name isn't Crystal
My name isn't Nicki
Or Chad or Sebastian
But thank you for asking

Drunk on a mattress
Kissing an actress
Taking the last sip
They call that a hat-trick
It turns out the sad kids
Become the Brad Pitts