Not The Same

I just wan' be left alone
There's nothin' painful more than death alone
Where all my dead ones go?
Like, why'd y'all leave me here?
I know they talkin' back to me but I can't seem to hear
My mentality cloudy I can't seem to clear it

Evil spirits can't avoid 'em I can't seem to shake 'em
I been through shit that you couldn't stomach but won't let it break me
Gave jurisdiction hope and niggas still ain't thank me
It don't surprise me though this shit be comin' with high's and lows

Got so many obituaries I can't cry no more
The feds stipulation stiff I can't get high no more
You see me starin' into space I'm tryna find me soul, nah
Tryna find myself politely I declined yo' help

There's nothing you can do to bring my niggas back
And I just want my niggas back
It ain't nothin' you could do to bring my niggas back
And you can't do nothin' for a gangsta, you can't gimme dat

They tellin' me I changed
I'm knowin' I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowin' it's not the fame
I'm knowin' it's not the money
Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly

They tellin' me I changed
I'm knowin' I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowin' it's not the fame
I'm knowin' it's not the money
Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly

I used to pray I live forever, shit, I'on care no more
Ayy, am I weird for textin' gang though he ain't here no more?
Mom's couldn't speak at your service 'fore she cleared her throat she broke down
Ain't know what you meant to us they know now
Throw rounds

Used to pour out liquor now we pour out pints of slimnov
Loyalty related to betrayal that shit a thin line
Death before dishonor always been a quote I live by
His son was there to watch them niggas barbecue his ribeye

Gave my partner mama somethin' just to get by
Even if she get high with it, shit, I don't blame her
The suckas catch me loafin' I promise to die a gangsta
Clip hold 20, it's 19, one in the chamber

They tellin' me I changed
I'm knowin' it ain't the fame
Give a fuck about this money
I just wanted y'all to love me
But after all the sneaky snake shit, how could you trust me?
Niggas forced my hand
Shit, I was forced to get him slammed

They tellin' me I changed
I'm knowin' I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowin' it's not the fame
I'm knowin' it's not the money
Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly

They tellin' me I changed
I'm knowin' I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowin' it's not the fame
I'm knowin' it's not the money
Skizzy on my skully I ain't know nothin' 'bout that backdoor 'til they showed me, shit get ugly