From Nothing

New York City used to feel so alive
Now it's nothing but a shadow in my mind
You look for love on street corners
Coffee shops, work, and online
I built a shell all around me
Of what I thought you really wanted
And I hate all the boxes we check
Oh God, who the fuck am I becoming

Did you find the guy you were looking to be with
And would you mind if we just fucked around for a little bit
Cuz I'm not trying to turn this into something
Cuz all the times I've fallen in love it's come from nothing

I don't wanna go get a drink
Or walk through lines in museums
I don't wanna go hang at the park
Hit the lake and try to hold your hand
Well hell, maybe I'm being too cruel
And I'm hiding from something inside
Or maybe it's that affection is earned
And not something for free online

Did you find the guy you were looking to be with
And would you mind if we just fucked around for a little bit
Cuz I'm not trying to turn this into something
Cuz all the times I've fallen in love it's come from nothing

I'm not trying to be mean and you know I'm not trying to be harsh
Maybe it's arrested development and I was fucked from the start
Who knows, one day I'll wake up and
Be All Alone
Go skip rocks at the lake by my home
To be forty-five and so alone

Did you find the guy you were looking to be with
And would you mind if we sat and just tried to reconnect
Cuz I am trying to turn my life into something
I shoot myself in the foot for love and for nothing
For nothing
For nothing
For nothing