How I'm Feeling Now (Orchestral Version)

Will you forgive me if I'm comin' off a little bit obtuse?
Well, it's been a minute now since I have had to tell the truth
I know I can
I won't

Suppose I thought that, by this moment
I would have it figured out
But, instead
I tend to spend my days consumed by seeds of doubt
I know I can
I won't

Oh, darlin', it goes on and on and on
Always, forever, till I'm barely holdin' on
End of my tether and I know it won't be long
It won't be long till it's gone

So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my fuckin' head

On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wonderin' how I'm feelin' now"

I try to tell myself my best days are the ones that lie ahead
But I'm always lookin' back on things I wish I'd never said
I know I can
I won't

Oh, darlin', it goes on and on and on
Always, forever, till I'm barely holdin' on
End of my tether and I know it won't be long
It won't be long till it's gone

So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my fuckin' head

On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wonderin' how I'm feelin' now"

I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah
But I'll get there
No, I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah
But I'll get there

So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my fuckin' head

On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wonderin' how I'm feelin' now"