Amazing

I caught a sickness, and they don't know the name of it
I flew to Paris tryna get away, mm
I drown my sadness, embarrassed by the shame of it
But all it seems to do is magnify the pain

I wish I was a strong boy, head in the sand
If I were them, I would be the man
And my lips are searching for what happiness is
I'm dragging my feet trying to breathe again

Yeah, I'm tryna feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today

I tore the page and I put all of my weight on it
So I could stop it trying to blow away, mm
The darkest days, well, I got all I could take from them
Starting to think it'll never change

I see my life is planned in front of me
And I don't need to do a thing just because I can
And my friends are talking like, "What's happened to him?"
I'm dragging my feet trying to breathe again, ay

Yeah, I'm tryna feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today, and

Yeah, I'm tryna feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today

I'm tryna think, at the same time, tryna say something
Can't switch off my brain, so don't meditate
Every time I crack a smile, I can sense another tear coming
That's kind of weird, but what can I say?

I know I'm on the edge and one push of the wind
Will send me flying deep into the unknown
I guess this is the time to let 'em all in
'Cause nothin' is worse than when you hit the low, and

Yeah, I'm tryna feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today, and

Yeah, I'm tryna feel amazing
Yeah, but I can't get out of my way, and
Yeah, wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today, yeah

Yeah, this is all that I can feel today
Yeah, this is all that I can feel today