Dear Alcohol (feat. Atlus, Kelsie Watts, Carly Pearl, ERV ELLO, SkyDxddy, Trippz, Kayla Rae, Common Tribe, Troy, Phix, KC Makes Music & Official Dj Aaron) [Mega Remix]

LexNour

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

I got wasted just to fill my head with lies
Feelin' like Superman, the Henny makes me fly
Until I wake up as the sun sets
I pick up that bottle, tell me what's another regret?

I'm addicted to the buzz, I've tried hard to give you up
But nothin' seems to work, right now I'm feelin' stuck
Promised my loved ones that I was done, but
We both know I ain't done 'cause

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

I keep sayin' I'ma change, but I can't stay away
'Cause there's a hole inside my heart that's growin' every day
So I medicate, I take it straight, tryna find a remedy to numb the pain
Keep prayin', help me find a way to heal me before I suffocate
Come find me, I'm about to break, open a bottle and chase it all away

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted (I got wasted)

It's a quick high, then a long low, and you call me tryna come home
But I can't be your only remedy, tryna save you is gon' kill me
So write it down, put it in a song
Hope you pour it out, we'd all feel less alone
'Stead of gettin' wasted, waste your time makin' somethin' real
You can turn your waste to power, helpin' other people heal

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (yeah)
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

I'm passed out, and it's like I'm in a war
Life is passin' while I'm wasted on the floor
See I've been drownin' in a life without no passion
Copin' with this drink and I know it's tragic
I wanna feel real life, I want some real kisses, feel the real touch
Find a real Mrs. 'til the fog is gone
With God as my witness, I'ma sober up, I'ma sober up

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

Just one more shot of whiskey then I'll put the bottle down
The warmth that it provides me is the best thing that I have found
And I know that it can't kill me 'cause I'm already dead
And I would do anything to drown these thoughts inside my head

I'm messed up, fucked up, and I only disappoint
My mental health doesn't give me much a choice
Drunk in the crowds, gettin' lost in all the noise
If someone screams and no one hears, do they even have a voice?

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

I spent half my life drinkin', other half over-thinkin'
Blame it on a disposition and a family full of addiction
Some say it's already written, I guess the first step is admittin'
It's hard bein' sober and dealin' with feelings
Now I ain't a quitter, but things have been different, yeah

No more bottles, still catchin' waves, in and out we gon' turn the bass
Used to buy into bein' an addict until I learned another way
I've been findin' my balance, lettin' go of my malice
Here's a toast to the challenge, yeah

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

On the rocks, straight up so I don't feel a thing
I'd rather deal wit' it the next day than feel the pain
Try to find another way, go to sleep and fly away
But I close my eyes and I can't escape

Just a bad bitch with some issues I can't seem to solve
Always end up hurtin' anyone who get involved
And I tried, but I'm no good at lovin' you
Said I was busy, but I really just stayed at home

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

Since you've been gone, I've been sippin' into my sorrows
One last bottle then tomorrow I'll be sober, but I
I can't escape this hole that I've been diggin' in
All my demons fightin' wars that I can't really win
So I bite my tongue and hit the wall until I bleed
Trapped in my thoughts until it's hard for me to breathe
And I know it's hard for you to see, but this liquor's got a hold on me

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted (ooh)

Every time I look in the mirror, all I see, oh-whoa
Is somebody just wonderin' why they always leave
Ooh-hoo, instead of dealin' with it and feelin' it
I tell myself I don't need someone when it's all that I need
Oh, deep down I'm so lonely

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (ooh)
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

At 14, I had my first OJ and vodka and thought I was so G
But that quickly turned into poppin' these pills and mixin' my drink with the codeine
But then I OD'd, I shoulda listened when they told me
Now when I drink, I get to sendin' you these messages just 'cause I'm lonely
And it ain't 'cause I'm wasted, it's because I'm lost, I need you to call
And I don't know no other way to take away the pain, I'm 'bout to fall

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

You ever look back to a certain time and try to reminisce
And all you get is little flashes, a piece of the past
And as each year pass you start to realize the only thing that last is the bottom of a glass
And your friendships' plastic oh well, that shit happens

But what about when you can't even make it through the day
And your hands start shakin', your girlfriend left
And your parents pray for your safety?
Not just pray, but the type that would make even atheists' feel like it's somethin' to faith

'Cause maybe only God knows what it takes
Maybe only I know how to break it
But I can't 'cause I'm caged in the shell of a man right now
I don't really wanna hear it, hurt the people that are dearest
And it took my soul, that's why they call it spirits

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

You drink the bottle to feel okay, you thought the pain woulda went away
Tired of the emptiness feelin', you filled it with drink to drown out the pain
But you didn't know the things you was losin' in life
You couldn't face any problems
Now facin' the bottle and it cost you losin' your life

Left me alone on this earth
And I need advice for the problems I have, sometimes I just wanna pour me a drink
But then I remember the power it has, soon as you take that first drink
You take it, and then it will take you
I wish you coulda found help, or I wish that I could've saved you

You was the one that was drinkin', but you'll never know what it did to me
I buy me a 5th and I get to thinkin', and pour it all out in ya memory
I'm glad that you're finally happy, now I'm the one who'll suffer
You was the one with the problem, now you're gone, and I'll never recover, hm

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (oh, no, no)
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize (no, no, no)
I got wasted (I got wasted)

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted (I got wasted)