Back Pew

(Hallelujah)

Showed up this morning 'cause I didn't know where else to go
Needed a word with the Father, Son, Holy Ghost
When I stepped in the lobby, the pastor, he stopped me
Said, "Lily, where you've been? It's been a month or so"

I told him, "I've been home
Tryna get through some goodbye tears"
And you don't even know
The Hell it took to get me here

Might've been 15 minutes late
Might've missed half of the worship
But at least I showed my face
And showin' up, here's the first step
I've been through heartbreak hell

And my whole row can tell
'Cause I still smell like last night's booze
But I got a last ditch prayer
For the man upstairs
Oh Lord, would you help me through
Even if I'm in the back pew?

Sat in my car through the first couple services
Took a drag just to calm down the nervousness
I turned down the music, told myself, "Just do it"
Threw up a Hail Mary instead of cursin' him

I finally caught my breath
For the first time in way too long
I know I ain't there yet
But the light in the tunnel turned on

Might've been 15 minutes late
Might've missed half of the worship
But at least I showed my face
And showin' up, here's the first step
I've been through heartbreak hell

And my whole row can tell
'Cause I still smell like last night's booze
But I got a last ditch prayer
For the man upstairs
Oh Lord, would you help me through
Even if I'm in the back pew?

I'm singin', hallelujah
I hope it's comin' in clear (I hope it's comin' in clear)
I'm singin', hallelujah
From all the way back here

Even though I was 15 minutes late
And I missed half of the worship
But at least I showed my face
And showin' up, here's the first step

I've been through heartbreak hell
And my whole row can tell
'Cause I still smell like last night's booze
But I got a last ditch prayer
For the man upstairs
Oh Lord, would you help me through
Even if I'm in the back pew?

(Hallelujah)