Drunk by Myself

Uhh, uhh, where am I going?
Where am I? (Where am I?)
Where the hell am I?
Yo, it's ill

Yo, my wife's tired of fucking me
Life tries ducking me, luckily I find 'em just at the right time
Mack in my right arm, Tequila bottle in my left arm like Cristian
Watching my life go, can't do myself in

Wolves in the night, yo, hell's men
Two revolvers, I can let twelve spin
Hop in my Benz, push it to the limit, buck-sixty, who wit' me?
My Cris', two L's, twisted blunts and inner conscience

Telling me that I ain't shit, no matter how much cash I sit with
Still gotta ask the Lord for forgiveness
My precious baby girl came like forty nights of rain
To replenish my adolescent brain

Blessed be her name, before her birth I was insane
So I drive to cool the pressure down, delay the pain
I ate from these poisonous, fucked up streets
Tasted larceny, it was sweet, I starve for more to eat

Though I took, that was to live, hope God will forgive
As odd as it is, the more I gain the harder it is
To maintain, bitches playin' games, niggas snitchin', I ain't sayin' names
But y'all niggas better watch how y'all slang

Lost so many close niggas; drunk, almost crashed
I'm going too fast, highway patroller just flash
Lights in my rearview, if they stop me I hope they lock me
Instead they speed ahead, yo, nigga watch me

I'm drunk by myself, gun under my seat
I don't want none of my peeps caught up in none of my beef
I'mma ride to the end of the road if I have to
Praying no car speeds by for me to crash to

Steering wheel in my hand, tryna hold it steady
Anything in my way is dead 'cause that's the way I feel, I am already
When I'm drunk by myself alone in the zone
Drunk by myself

Heard niggas hate me, but I hated too once
Been in the shoes of a wolf in the night when he hunts
For every shell niggas bust, we bust at ourselves
Can't tell these niggas nothing though, bullets wake 'em up well

Take 'em to hell, stick-up niggas once ran up on me
My decorated lifestyle attracted sharks on me
I aint your mark, homie
It's hard to look straight, my foot on the brake

Spilling my bottle, not even shook of the Jakes
Could hardly look both ways, put out the haze, blurry vision
Think about the time in my life before I was on televison
Hella women, jealous niggas up in my vision

Since we all hood niggas, expect kilos
For what they not seeing is police expect Rico
Only if I could take care of everybody; intoxicated
Windows up blastin' A.C., going wherever instinct takes me
I hate it when I'm like this, the bottle's my accomplice

I'm drunk by myself, gun under my seat
I don't want none of my peeps caught up in none of my beef
I'mma ride to the end of the road if I have to
Praying no car speeds by for me to crash to

Steering wheel in my hand, I try to hold it steady
Anything in my way is dead 'cause that's the way I feel, I am already
When I'm drunk by myself alone in the zone
Drunk by myself

The reason that I want to be alone
Tired of all the things that went wrong that would have went right if I would have did it on my own
Take another swig, the more I drink, the more I think bad thoughts
Fake friends who hung around who wanna bring you down

Not knowing who to trust, rumours about niggas coming through
Supposedly to shoot at us, not knowing what was true
Or what to believe, that's why I'm on the low lately
Choosing a Henny bottle over a friend, driving again
To keep my mind off that weak shit

There's love through it all, things to live for
I swerve, almost crash into a wall
Think about the good, find myself laughing
Turn the cell off, no way to be reached

Know I'm near my crib, tryna see my way through the streets
Reminded of the positive, I take my drunk ass home
Start feeling out of it, can't wait to get out of this whip
Bring my ass to the crib, I'm tired

When I'm drunk by myself, gun under the seat
I don't want none of my peeps caught up in none of my beef
I'mma ride to the end of the road if I have to
Praying no car speeds by for me to crash to

Steering wheel in my hand, tryna hold it steady
Anything in my way is dead 'cause that's the way I feel I am already
When I'm drunk by myself all alone in the zone
Drunk by myself